Like a lullaby

Taufiq

2009-08-27T21:25:00.002+08:00

My boyfriend, my better half, has been in Brunei for quite some time now (I refuse to count the number of heartache days) and I miss him like crazy. I want to hold him close and take all of him in until I can't breathe. This heartache, this longing.. I just want him close. Right now, I can feel him. I have goosebumps just thinking of him

I love you, Sayang. And I missed you so much today..

My dear, we're slow dancing in a burning room

2009-08-09T23:44:00.001+08:00

I can't love you anymore.

There's just no one who gets me like you do.

2009-08-02T13:35:00.002+08:00

I thought I had my life all planned out, but now I have other other options. Damn!! :(

I'll never let you go if you promise not to fade away

2009-08-02T13:11:00.001+08:00

Hee.. My adorable baby.. :)) ♥

I hear Wedding bells

2009-08-01T10:20:00.003+08:00

What a GREAT Friday I had. Hahahaha. MP/SIP till like, 12? Tried out that new sandwich place for lunch, Fairprice, and went for NUS, SIM and MOE talks. Siti K bubble me like siao for the MOE talk, so I was alone boohoo. Not really. I went out of audi 1 and found future teachers from BIE! Haha. So went with them and irritated the shit out of H and H. oh, and L too, cos he was there.......!

The talk was coooooooooooool. The teaching one. It was all videos. Muahhaa. Went back to the DU. And then!!!!! Found out that 2 people were going on a date. Gee. I'm guessing that half our cohort knows about it? Well that's because, after school, around 11 losers had no plans, and so off we went to TECHNO. Tiow. TCS. :)

Mm, bought my dinner and went home .;( Friggin no life. And went to sleep at ard 10. Heh. But got a phone call at 11ish, and then chatted on skype till 2.30?

So today I DO have plans. Hehhhh! Wheee.........

:) And I'm wearing my new dress! Thank you FANGBIT for ordering the stuffffssss. hee ( I dont call you HJP alr ok! )

Wheee

<3

Oh love, don't let me go..

2009-07-25T12:02:00.001+08:00

S: Why are you home on a Friday night?
N: Why are YOU home on a Friday night?
S: It's not a choice, man.

So take, take me as I am..

2009-07-14T21:49:00.000+08:00

Red Thread Red Thread! Season Finale gave me and my sister "HAH?!" HAH?!! WHAT?!?!.Same bloody reaction when we both watched it an hour apart.

LOL.

Kiss me, beneath the milky twilight

2009-07-11T01:26:00.002+08:00

I'm way tired. Shld be asleep by now, but I promised a friend that I'll chat tonight. It's been like, long? IDK how long, but long enough. Right?

No it don't break even

2009-07-10T11:07:00.002+08:00

"When your heart breaks, you've got to fight like hell to make sure you're still alive, because you are. And that pain you feel? That's life. The confusion and fear? That's there to remind you that out there somewhere is something better. And that something is worth fighting for."

Alright, lots that I haven't updated about, eyh? Too many things went on since I last blogged. Heee. Nyayi's surprise bday celebrations, Kenny's surprise bday celebs yest, bowling + transformers... Hahaha... And lots more lah. I have a good life. LOL

:)

I love school

2009-06-24T20:40:00.002+08:00

SA: Siti, kite makan kat mane nari?
SK: Kat luar...
*we ALWAYS eat outside*

SK: Aku nak kencing ah..
SA: Aku pon. Jom. Bawak matric card eh

S: Eh I very tired, I slept late last night
K: What time you sleep last night?
S: 10.30...
K: Wow, 10.30 ah.. wow.. *in his stupid tone*

S: Fuck you ah Kenny
K: *points* now?
If we were in the DU, he'll point to the place behind.
S: Ok let's go
K: *begins climbing*
If we were outside..
K: No, cannot.. We're in public

SF: Kiss-a-slug
MK: Slut?!?!?!
SA: Ya ya ya, she never kiss anybody, only herself. So yeah

SF: Eh you bring slippers to school can lend me? I got blisters

SA: *sings* It's the climb....
ST: Shh... Noisy LA!
K: Wow the vocals, goood..
SA: Yalah, miley cyrus, good lah, but I also okay..
K: *Makes vomit action when I'm not looking *
SA: KNS lah Kenny! *cos I looked up*

ST/SA: *makes random noise*
SA/ST: *makes same random noise*
*the cycle continues until one of us, "Eh shuddup lah!"
Then the other one "waaaa.... So rude...."

That's what I go to school for. There's a hell lot more, but we'll just save the embarrassment, eyh?

:)

2009-06-24T12:47:00.001+08:00

I am very happy.

\that is a total lie

I'll be outside of your window

2009-06-20T11:26:00.001+08:00

♥

-there's always something on tumblr that makes me :)

We build, then we break

2009-06-19T21:41:00.002+08:00

OK officially no more shopping!! At least, until I get back what I need in the bank. Sighs, ooh oooh!!! Hahaha. Thank God for receipts I keep in my wallet that they hide my money! Im not totally broke, then! But then again, that's going to the bank :)

And and and. Yahlah I admit I'm a fucking spendthrift. Used to be living in denial but now no more no more but I still want to shop.

2 more days of freedom, and then it's really time to focus fully on my project. Siti and I had the same thinking. No more distractions this term around.

I <3 BIE

2009-06-18T14:36:00.002+08:00

Goodie Bag
Facebook/Blogsite/Twitter
Jean Danker (she and Adrian Danker are cousins, apparently)
Design ticket by the end of the month

Kiss me beneath the milky twilight

2009-06-18T10:49:00.003+08:00

Well, all my plans were cancelled yesterday, but it's alright.. The Da Vinci exhibition is on until 16th August, and I can always go shopping with Siti, and despite the rare times we get invited to Diy's place to just chill like the old times, there will always be another. :)

Oh, I met Fang to get my F21 stuffssss hehhee. Those made me really24534 happy. Haha. And I got the shoes omg! I'm almost as tall as the boyfriend. Hahahaha. He put them on for me like I were Cinderella or rather like the annoying bf that he is cos I didn't know how to put them on. Grr.

He came over in the evening cos I was really tired (yeah well, I was already drooling on his mattress before we went out) and just spent time with Diana and I. Heeeeeeeeeeee

god I sound like those giggly girls eeew stoppit eh okokok bye

Nobody wants to be the last one there

2009-06-13T22:16:00.004+08:00

<3 this cousin outing a hell lot.

Thanks for sushi, mummy!

Happy Birthday Dian

Sushi sushi sushi!

Ice cream chefs

Karaoke with the chillak-aaaaa

So tell me, how much more perfect can this holiday be?

Oh yeah, Boyfriend gets 4 days leave when he comes back from Port Dickson tomorrow.
Shopping with Siti K and Grace on Wednesday

I just wanna be alone tonight

2009-06-13T21:13:00.003+08:00

I am just so in love with this man. The things he does for me, are all done so willingly.. I can never find another like him.

I love you.

Fuck you, Fuck you very very much (:

2009-05-31T09:32:00.005+08:00

Notice that the titles have nothing to do with the entries? Hehe. They're picked out by songs that I'm listening to.

Bi-annual beach day :)

We welcome Ria Raziany Razak to Temasek Polytechnic!

Lovely Sunday brunch

"Fuck you ah Kenny!"

Happy Birthday MK!!

Ooh ooh Karaoke!!!

Siti K :))

Grad Day!

Show me what it's like to be the last one standing

2009-05-28T21:23:00.001+08:00

:)

I like. Alot. Hee

2009-05-26T09:28:00.002+08:00

3 more days till I see him again. Technically, it's 4. Called me on Saturday for like a minute, and yesterday, for less than that. But it's alright.. I guess.. He's having some R&R at an outdoors place aka the jungle/mountain top/whatever, so I can only get to talk to him on Thursday. :) And then, one more day.. Whoots!

Today - Gelare with Adib

Tmr - Karaoke with Grace&Siti

Thurs - Feel like making sushi

Fri - Supper with Looofy :)

Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same

2009-05-24T07:48:00.002+08:00

Beach days are nothing short of wonderful, even if it was just at ECP.

Ended off with Tulang@Beach Road for dinner. Yum!

:)

Today: Brunch, and MK's birthday bbq at ECP

2009-05-23T08:48:00.002+08:00

The euphoria of being on top. Indescribable.

My Sacrifice

2009-05-20T16:32:00.001+08:00

Hello my friend, we meet again
It's been awhile, where should we begin?
Feels like forever
Within my heart are memories
Of perfect love that you gave to me
Oh, I remember

When you are with me, I'm free
I'm careless, I believe
Above all the others we'll fly
This brings tears to my eyes
My sacrifice

We've seen our share of ups and downs
Oh how quickly life can turn around
In an instant
It feels so good to reunite
Within yourself and within your mind
Let's find peace there

When you are with me, I'm free
I'm careless, I believe
Above all the others we'll fly
This brings tears to my eyes
My sacrifice

I just want to say hello again
I just want to say hello again

When you are with me I'm free
I'm careless, I believe
Above all the others we'll fly
This brings tears to my eyes

Cause when you are with me I am free
I'm careless, I believe
Above all the others we'll fly
This brings tears to my eyes
My sacrifice, My sacrifice

I just want to say hello again
I just want to say hello again

My sacrifice.

I hear jerusalem bells are ringing

2009-05-20T14:50:00.004+08:00

I feel accomplished before lunch because I did the fabricating with the help of LST with the circuit cam and MK with the clicking and stuff at 16-1. :) Thanks, you guys! Now I roughly know how to do circuit cam after Dragon Lady insisted on seeing my .cam file. WTH. Ok too much engine speak. We're slacking like mad. Don't feel like doing work at all. Did Facebook quizzes (under my account) and go people's blog and... They all went online shopping on china website. Sheesh.

OK jusst got back from Breadboard with Horlicks. Yay. Lick lick lick lick your lollipop

Dear Sarah Fang,

2009-05-18T22:49:00.003+08:00

Siew Tin and I just can't help making fun of this big mouthed girl called Sarah Fang. She's so noisy!! I cannot tahan... :) See ya tomorrow!!

Should've done better than this

2009-05-17T11:53:00.002+08:00

Did you say it? "I love you. I don't ever want to live without you. You changed my life." Did you say it? Make a plan. Set a goal. Work toward it, but every now and then, look around; Drink it in 'cause this is it. It might all be gone tomorrow.

Cloths of Heaven

2009-05-16T21:59:00.002+08:00

Had I the heavens' embroidered cloths,
Enwrought with golden and silver light,
The blue and the dim and the dark cloths
Of night and light and the half-light,
I would spread the cloths under your feet:
But I, being poor, have only my dreams;
I have spread my dreams under your feet;
Tread softly because you tread on my dreams.

falling away

2009-05-16T10:38:00.002+08:00

I want a baby without the hassle of getting married, making love and giving birth. Right now. Seeing my baby cousin's (born just 7 days ago) picture made my heart melt. So adorable. I want one now! :)

No I don't wanna go to bed mad at you

2009-05-16T01:42:00.000+08:00

I hate having that unsettled feeling when I'm about to go to bed. It is just plain sucky.

Aku tahu kau rindukan aku

2009-05-16T01:37:00.003+08:00

The things I do when.. It breaks his heart. This disease, it can never go away. As much as I want to, it's just.. Too hard. I need him. Now, I miss him. Come back, Baby.

I'm addicted to your sound

2009-05-15T09:45:00.003+08:00

Last update: 10th May 2009

Nothing but love.

:)

Got the past three images from either weheartit.com or icanread.tumblr.com - althought weheartit has been down for the past couple of days. It's alright. As long as I get my daily fix of this, I'll be fine for the rest of the day.

Day 6 of T-In-Brunei and yet I don't feel that sense of missing him. Feels like just another week of him at SAFTI, and me sleeping as early as 10.30 every night without a chance for him to call, you know that kinda thing. The only thing that bothers me is not having to check my phone for messages as often. Dang. Haha.Oh well.

Today's TGIF. Hopefully, meetup with the gang, and tomorrow's MI Carnival. I don't feel like taking the train. Hahahaha. See how, man! :)

Ok then, back to reading a thick like hell Programming book.

:) Siew Tin's beside me trying to find circuits that has got to do with heart shapes. Eh cool huh. If I'm damn bored I'll do it. Hahaha

I can do this

2009-05-10T16:30:00.000+08:00

WE can do this

Lie cold in the ground

2009-05-08T07:56:00.002+08:00

Falling in and out of love

2009-05-07T22:24:00.002+08:00

Won't you take me where the streetlights glow

2009-05-04T23:37:00.002+08:00

"Take my hand and I'll show you my world. "
Well that's what he did, for the past year.

Today was one of the most amazing days spent with the boyfriend. Despite the date, it was practically unplanned. Okay so I normally have hotcakes breakfast on special occasions, and well, since it was, I made the boyfriend get it for me. He obliged with maybe just the slightest complaint, but well, he's the best I ever had.

Breakfast at Breadboard, and slacked around, experimenting with the glucometer. Boyfriend pricked me because he was scared to get pricked himself. Idiot. Blood glucose level = 8.3 mg/mmol. That's highhh! Because I just had breakfast and I had hotcakes with maple syrup. Duh.

Ok then tried to repair my laptop (again. Heh), but couldn't. :( Since it was almost lunch, we went over to his place, where he tried to repair it to no avail. Just spent some time together before I zoomed off to school at 2. Wasted time in school by talking to the 3 bimbos (MK, Fang, Siew Tin). Boyfriend came by again and he had his chicken rice.

Back to the lab. Rushed 'cos the people outside were saying that my super was inside. Grr. So yeah, action for a while, and then when he left, went over to my favourite place, wasted time by chatting on MSN with Fang who was 2 seats away, and playing scissors paper stone on MSN. Don't ask. We're unique like that. :)

So yeah, clocked out, saw Mangkuk and Syaza, and slacked for a while with them. Initial plans were to go to Mustafa but I wasn't feeling good, so we didn't. Instead, T and I went to Tamp, and got tickets to Wolverine, 7.30pm show. Went to coffeebean, bumped into Mas and Firdaus, they joined us while waiting for Fifi and Kodok? Lol. Okay, so they came and we left.

Movie was goood! Extra good because it was just the two of us. (: Headed home after that, and we sat outside my house, talking, until it got late.

:)

Countless times I've said I Love You today, and for what it's worth, I meant it every single time.

I love you, sayang

Happy First Year

Will you sleep tonight?

2009-04-30T13:56:00.003+08:00

Ever since school started, I've been so damn sick of the computer that I don't even go online at night. When I come home, it's shower, watch tv, have dinner if I haven't, and then poof I'm on my bed, reading a few pages of my book and sometimes having Taufiq on the line.

Today I decided to go home for lunch since I saw huge packs of Thai food in the fridge. The pineapple rice was niceeeee! And to top it off, there was Tiramisu ice cream in the freezer. Wahaha.. Tonight, Pizza Hut for dinner (hopefully!) with cousins. It's been a while since we all just hung out. Especially me and my twin. :( Except that I met him this afternoon to pass him the book, and I was from blk23 and he walked so damn slowly that I reached first. Kanasai. To. The. Max.

Ok then, I'll be off to school in a while.

Hearts all over the world tonight

2009-04-28T19:50:00.002+08:00

Parkway's going through another revamp and I don't quite like it. Damn, they took away LJS - not that I fancy eating there, just that, it was there where I first hung out with Taufiq. I say hung out because we didn't realise we were having our first date that day/night. Thinking of it just makes me smile, alot.

:)

I missed you today.

Goodnight, I'm really tired

2009-04-26T11:33:00.001+08:00

I love them chillak-a. Thanks for Friday night. It was what I needed.

how to save a life?

2009-04-21T22:10:00.002+08:00

I.Can't.Wait.To.See.The.Chillak-a.Tomorrow.
:))
It's been so damn long, laaaaaa!!!!!!!
Camera's charged, Phone's charged, Ipod's charged.
I'm ready to go!!

Sometimes it feels like the world's almost over

2009-04-21T21:57:00.002+08:00

Most times, I prefer to be told then to just be hinted at. Especially when it comes to matters of the heart where I may be totally clueless at because that's just me. So lay it out on me, please. Which has been done. Anything more, do tell.

I'm trying to change - more importantly for my sake. Just hope that it'll stick, because I want it to. I need this to find myself.

Don't pretend

2009-04-19T13:24:00.001+08:00

If anyone asks I'll tell them we both just moved on
When people all stare I'll pretend that I don't hear them talk
Whenever I see you I'll swallow my pride and bite my tongue
Pretend I'm okay with it all
Act like there's nothing wrong

Is it over yet
Can I open my eyes
Is this as hard as it gets
Is this what it feels like to really cry

If anyone asks I'll tell them we just grew apart
What do I care if they believe me or not
Whenever I feel your memory is breaking my heart
I'll pretend I'm okay with it all
Act like there's nothing wrong

I'm talking in circles
I'm lying, they know it
Why won't this just all go away

I wish you were a stranger I could disengage

2009-04-19T10:47:00.001+08:00

Suddenly I become a part of your past. I'm becoming the part that don't last. I'm losing you and it's effortless.

Comparisons are easily made once you've had the taste of perfection

2009-04-19T10:30:00.002+08:00

I remember something:
-Last year during wkzero the only thing I received was a packet of tissue. This year, i received a card from my freshie.

-Last year i could start my 2nd year with my head held high. This year, I don't think I'll be able to do it.

I went through so many trials last year. This year, there'll be so many more.

Oh God ,I need the strength. I need Your guidance, to help me get through this.

cast all the pain to the tourniquet that binds me

2009-04-19T10:26:00.002+08:00

It's so hard to say that I'm sorry I'll make everything alright

I know St. Peter won't call my name

2009-04-19T01:53:00.002+08:00

Camp was the best experience ever - and I say it heavily dripping with sarcasm. Because for the most part, I was totally out of it. Headaches like never before, and it was 99.99% due to the cleaning + tightening of my braces that I did on the first day of Orientation.

I guess people should know by now that I'm stubborn, because despite the headaches and dizzy spells, I still wanted to be with my class. I still wanted to have fun. So I pulled myself together, and on the last day.. Oh the last day.. :) That was the time when I really let loose. Cheering like nobody's business where I was standing/sitting, because there were practically no leaders there because some had to get ready for the performance. So I did.

The freshies weren't really cheering, but some of them did start when I did. God, I didn't care that my hair was messy, that my voice sounded like crap, that I was making a fool out of myself, jumping straight up when a cheer was coming on, that I was practically seeing stars. Because I had fun, and lots of it.

:)

So keep breathing cos I'm not leaving you anymore

2009-04-06T13:42:00.004+08:00

There were things in my life that I hadn't told anyone before, and on the 4th, I just had to. And I did, and he listened. I was lying face up so no tears could run down my face. It was painful, just remembering. And at some parts, they were easier to let out because I've lost all that feeling I used to have. That cold, cold feeling..

He said, "Ask anything"

2009-04-03T17:21:00.001+08:00

I need to listen to You Found Me by The Fray before I meet him

I was young but I wasn't naive..

2009-03-30T22:08:00.002+08:00

Chatting with friend after so long, I was laughing my ass off after discovering... Heh. Thank God I dont have a tagboard here. :)

//
And I'm telling him how T and I first got together. I'm smiling like crazy.

How could you be so heartless

2009-03-30T16:15:00.001+08:00

You put me on a shelf and kept me for yourself

2009-03-30T14:46:00.004+08:00

CRAVINGS!!!!!!!!

I want this, I want this, I want this. Go find it at Kate Spade and get it for me, someonee

Despite having this yesterday

It's been a while

This one, too

Sambal sting ray!!!

BBQ chicken! Haha. This one and sushi ah, foreverr

<3

<33

<333

<3333

This one is a must-buy, for sure! For real, yo!!

This one. I miss them, a lot.

You really broke my heart and I tried to sing

2009-03-27T23:56:00.003+08:00

but I couldn't think of anything

You don't speak to each other, you don't tell each other the truth, try to find a solution together, instead you go away and self-destruct. You fall in love with someone else, you sleep with someone else, you drink, you gamble. You do anything except to be honest - talk - with the person you're meant to spend the rest of your life with.

Violet Hill

2009-03-25T22:11:00.002+08:00

Listening to Coldplay just because. It's loud. Just because.

If you love me won't you let me go
If you love me won't you let me know

The Euclid Alternative

2009-03-25T13:08:00.001+08:00

"Look at the sign. Does it say I give a damn?"
"No"
"I DON'T!"

heh

You couldn't hear it in my voice

2009-03-25T01:12:00.004+08:00

Wait, I'm wrong
Should have done better than this
Please, I'll be strong
I'm finding it hard to resist
So show me what I'm looking for

Save me, I'm lost
Oh lord, I've been waiting for you
I'll pay any cost
Save me from being confused
Show me what I'm looking for
Show me what I'm looking for…oh lord

Don't let go
I've wanted this far too long
Mistakes become regrets
I've learned to love abuse
Please show me what I'm looking for

I waited the whole day, thinking up what to tell you. Waited until I fell asleep, but I realised it wasn't the right time. Not when you're tired. I'm sorry, baby. I'm glad we put down when we did, so you wouldn't have heard me crying. So now I can't sleep, cos after I was sitting up to actually talk about it, you had to sleep already.

You know what, maybe I shouldn't tell you. I don't know. Do you really want to know?

Save me from being confused. Show me what I'm looking for.

I think I'm thinking too much. taking things too seriously, as always. Maybe there's really no cause for worry here. Sighs. But I don't know. I really don't.

We lie awake and we dream of making our escape

2009-03-24T12:49:00.002+08:00

♥ Coldplay

I could feel it go down
You left the sweetest taste in my mouth
You're a silver lining the clouds

Over on the rooftops, let's get married

2009-03-23T15:25:00.003+08:00

Kids kids kids. I want I want I want.

Without you, it's a waste of time.

S: I wanna get my laptop repaired at Sim Lim
D: *shakes head and finger*
T: Why..?
S: Because it's the only place that's convenient, and I dont know anywhere else.
T: There's a computer shop near my place..
S: %$#^$%*%^#$^$%^%$ IDIOT!

No I don't wanna battle from beginning to end
I don't wanna cycle or recycle revenge
I don't wanna follow death and all of his friends

You made me this way

2009-03-21T02:13:00.003+08:00

Sim Lim on Saturday
Mall Cop on Sunday with dipshit porno sharing idiots (OK only 2 of them are)
Monday is a secret which will be revealed soon enough
Thursday is MTC. But yes, I'm in dire need of a camp in school and a social life
Next Sunday is MI's production of Awang Belanga

So live your life

2009-03-19T17:25:00.002+08:00

I wanna watch mooooooooovies!

Watchmen.
Coming Soon.
Paul Blart: Mall Cop.
Dragonball Evolution.
Race to With Mountain.

:) Thanks, Oppa!

0139hrs laughters

2009-03-18T01:40:00.000+08:00

"I like your fingering"
"Thank you"
"Maybe sometime you can try that on my instrument"

HAHAHAAH

The hamburger postulate

2009-03-18T01:06:00.002+08:00

The Big Bang Theory is my friend. My friend is The Big Bang Theory. Hurry and load! Because I'm too fucking bored after such a delightful conversation where all I heard was the sound of the television in the background. Simply delightful.

Well it's 2.25 am

2009-03-17T02:25:00.001+08:00

and I'm happy as a clam, smiling like nobody's business, because somebody tried to make me smile and you did! Idiotic asssucker.

I can't get close if you're not there

2009-03-17T01:41:00.003+08:00

You haven't been listening. Properly. At least, of late. I tried to ignore it, but it just isn't working out. So tell me now, what should I do? Pretend everything's fine? Swallow my pride because my boyfriend won't listen to me, so I gotta suck it up, toughen up?

One day she will tell you that she has had enough

2009-03-16T22:30:00.001+08:00

Looks like people are gonna look down on you your whole life cos you don't know shit about anything. :)

All my agony fades away when you hold me in your embrace

2009-03-16T19:07:00.001+08:00

The sun is rising
The screams have gone
Too many have fallen
Few still stand tall
Is this the ending
Of what we've begun?
Will we remember
What we've done wrong?

I don't wanna know the lover at my door is another heartache on my list

2009-03-12T00:51:00.002+08:00

How can I not get lonely late at night? How can I not want............... Well let's not screw it up and say anything, now shall we?
Tired.
Headaches.
I'll call you when it's convenient for me, thank you very much.

Sometimes, I really think too much. Reflections on my day today was coming up empty but now, sighs. And I also think I seal disappointment in my voice pretty well. Either that, or..

:)

I'm just wasting time. Your ten minutes is almost up, asssucker! Stop eating and talk to me! Heh, oh well.

Song for a friend

2009-03-11T22:36:00.002+08:00

But you're not really a friend are you? We're tied by blood, so stop calling me what you always do. I'll appreciate it,really.

1 Thing 2 Do 3 Words 4 You

2009-03-11T13:26:00.002+08:00

I Love You. :)

Since the holidays started, I've done some productive things

1) Watched Heroes Chapter 3: Volume 4 and am waiting for the latest episode.
2) Started and finished watching Boys Over Flowers
3) Watched some movies that have been recorded on my hard disk since like, last year?
4) Met the boyfriend alot alot alot of times
5) Borrowed and read books
6) TGIF with the chillak-a without fail
7) KOREAN MOVIES!! Am waiting for The Art of Seduction to load. ;)
8) Catching up with Gossip Girl, Ugly Betty, 90210

I guess, more productive things can be done, like housework and more dates like before, and starting to watch more shows online YAY!

Takdir dan Waktu

2009-03-09T12:21:00.000+08:00

I just get restless staying home, not going out, for the past few weeks. Maybe that's where the arguments start from.

An accident just waiting to happen

2009-03-09T02:14:00.002+08:00

Whenever I hear the sound of a motorcycle zooming at this hour, I get chills down my spine, and goosebumps emerge, and they're not of the good kind. How many times have I seen accidents happen right outside my window? When you told me that you rode on your friend's bike, I wanted to scream at you, I really did. Instead, I just kept quiet, because why? Who am I to tell you what to do, and what not to do?

I'm just some random girl.

I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go

2009-03-09T01:18:00.002+08:00

I won't be surprised if I have those bad dreams again.

Let's have some fun this beat is sick

2009-03-08T17:18:00.004+08:00

A Sunday without Taufiq is like a Belgian chocolate without the chocolate. So bland, so boring, so plain. So, a Korean drama marathon it is for me, Boys Before Flowers.

Alamak so cute this boy, no wonder I'm addicted ;)

Oh, and when Muhammad Taufiq bin Zulkefly aka my Sayang says Heroes marathon, what he actually means is watch 5-6 chapters from VOLUME ONE, skip a few here and there, give up and watch Van Wilder 2: The Rise of Taj.

Action. Chet.

When I lose myself I think of you

2009-03-08T13:47:00.003+08:00

Childhood favourites (and up till now)

Lempeng pisang

Jemput2 pisang

French toast

Coney dog!!

Mum's steamed fish

Tuna mayo

Egg mayo

Nyayi's sweet&sour fish

Nyayi's macaroni goreng

Egg fried in butter

Anything kway teow

Double decker (BBQ flavour)

Prawn crackers

Super rings!

Mum's kuih makmur

Pop pop

10cent popsicles

Hero cake

Ritz Cheese sandwich biscuits

Seaweed crackers. (crackers with seaweed garnish)

Potato rings

Onion rings (the cracker type)

:)))

I'm not really here and you're not really there

2009-03-08T12:38:00.002+08:00

It took me long enough to admit to the one I love that I take revenge on him. Eye for an eye. Saying it out loud was clear enough a message. Sayang, I'm sorry. I'll be better, I'll try.

Don't look back in anger.

2009-03-05T14:50:00.003+08:00

Guess it's the embarrassment of the situation. What I asked for wasn't remembered, or wasn't even taken into consideration. So damn embarrassing. So damn embarrassing. So damn embarrassing. So tell me how can I face you today? I'm telling myself there's no point in crying over this but I still am. It's the humiliation. Argh. Need to get out.

My sacrifice

2009-03-04T12:11:00.005+08:00

Why do I contradict myself?

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you wanna cry

Perfect couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go

I love you but why does it hurt so much to? Within my heart are memories of perfect love that you gave to me. They're tainted now with images of her, and we can never get them back. I can never get them back.

I'd be lost if I lost you, if you ever leave

2009-03-04T11:57:00.002+08:00

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Being Alone While you may act like you don't care on the outside, on the inside your biggest fear is being alone. You can be quite shy and reserved. You feel like a lot of times people don't really see the real you. You're afraid that no one will really truly love you, and that you will be alone for the rest of your life. On the inside you are great person, so just remember that and don't let your shy nature get the best of you! If you don't want to be a lone then you need to make an effort to be with someone. Show the people that you care about that you really love them, and chances are someone will always be there, even if you think they won't.
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Death
Where Your life is Going
Disappointment
Commitment
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I guess that's true

Slipped away from your open hand, into the river

2009-03-03T17:16:00.002+08:00

The head and the heart wants two different things, so which one do you follow?

I know I'm harsh at times, but it's only when I'm down and out do I use that tone. To prove that I'm not weak, that I won't cry in your presence. Leave if it gets too hard for you to handle.

The lovers are losing

2009-03-03T14:23:00.000+08:00

Is there anything else that needs to be said?

Swallow the pill that they call pride

2009-02-27T00:25:00.004+08:00

I may not like my sisters all the time but at least I don't hate. Because ultimately, I know they'd always have my back, and vice versa.

We may not be perfect but at least we communicate, to try steer into the right direction, to better ourselves.

Sayang, next time we'll just hang at my place because your brother, is an ass.

There's no moving on so I'm already gone.

2009-02-26T23:36:00.003+08:00

Tomorrow you'll be thinking to yourself
Yeah, Where'd it all go wrong, the list goes on and on

And truth be told I miss you
And truth be told I'm lying

When you see my face
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell

When you walk my way
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell

Fucking awesome song.

I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better

2009-02-24T22:27:00.000+08:00

Is it over yet
Can I open my eyes
Is this as hard as it gets
Is this what it feels to really cry?

I never really had a chance

2009-02-24T15:03:00.003+08:00

Don't fall asleep for fear of dreaming. 30hours, and still counting.

Why?
This pain is just too real. There's just too much that time cannot erase. I'm still crying. I have a small feeling my mum knew about last night. Well, being alone in there for almost a half hour, and emerging looking like hell. She gave me a small smile and called me, "Adik.." This morning. She knew I didn't sleep, yet she didn't pry. I love you, Ma.

This is how a broken heart feels like. I can't meet you, even when I want to. I'm dying for that special hug, that special kiss.

They're not so special anymore after knowing.

Time is so short and I'm sure there must be something more

2009-02-23T11:36:00.002+08:00

Living each day being wary for the whole of my second year. I still have a whole year ahead of me. Another year of.. People talking behind my back? It was hard, initially, but I got over it. Because above all, Love will come through. It's the sacrifices we have to make, to pull through.

And in just a blink of an eye, we proved certain people wrong.

I love you, sayang

Wounds so deep they never show, they never go away

2009-02-20T09:45:00.002+08:00

I'm always here for you. You need someone. I'm the one. Me.

Stupid girl, I should have known

2009-02-18T13:55:00.001+08:00

Should have known.

My mistake :
I didn't know to be in love
You had to fight to have the upper hand
I had so many dreams
About you and me
Happy endings
Now I know

I was a dreamer before you went and let me down

2009-02-18T10:27:00.002+08:00

One day you'll come to a realisation that you're not worthy of him, of his love. All you'd ever want from him is to tell him to stop loving you despite you being so in love with him. Could it get any harder?

Everywhere I'm looking now, I'm surrounded by your embrace

2009-02-17T20:15:00.002+08:00

Don't make me your everything, because I'll only disappoint. The heartaches and the walking outs.. You don't deserve it.

So pull me from that pedestal. I don't belong there. Never have, and never will.

This ship is taking me far away

2009-02-17T19:59:00.003+08:00

I won't do things if I feel the other party isn't interested in what I have to offer. Brings the self-esteem I have to a level of almost zero

Tell me why you're so hard to forget

2009-02-17T13:07:00.002+08:00

I love you, Muhammad Taufiq Bin Zulkefly

♥ always.

Cintaku..

Janganlah kau pergi dariku

Janganlah kau tinggalkan aku

Ku masih memerlukan kamu

My path had lost direction, somehow

2009-02-14T12:27:00.002+08:00

Friends asked what plans I had for the 14th. A strong answer was given, and it's come true.

Home alone

I used to be my own protection, but not now

2009-02-12T22:39:00.002+08:00

I don't know how long it's been going on.

Who will you blame?

2009-02-11T15:06:00.002+08:00

Well I wanted to be alone, but God doesn't want me to, because He knows, I'll be stressed out of my wits. So here I am , surrounded by fun people, who are, unfortunately doing their project. But it's alright. I won't be alone

Forget your pain, watch me fall apart

2009-02-10T23:23:00.002+08:00

I can't even take care of myself, so how can I take care of somebody else? Sometimes I feel suffocated, being asked to do something I can't or don't want to do. It's eating at me

We are home now, the sun won't hurt you anymore

2009-02-10T11:32:00.002+08:00

An answered prayer - he came home last night. Feeling his touch made me have those wonderful butterflies in my stomach (ooh corny much). But it really did. I guess that's what happens when you're in love, when you're comfortable being with him.

I remember before, when I was still nervous around him. I couldn't tell him my lame jokes, my corny shit, the stupid things that I do/did, even about the things that made me unhappy.. Because I thought too much. I thought of him judging me in a certain way. But then I came to my senses (albeit with MUCH push from him), and realised, that hey! if I can't be myself around my own boyfriend, if I can't tell him the things that are bothering me, who else can I tell? True?

I love you, babe

I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away

2009-02-09T17:12:00.002+08:00

Sometimes we're just too far apart when we need each other the most. God is testing our patience and resilience, to get through this. Together. ♥

Where were you when everything was falling apart?

2009-02-09T11:20:00.007+08:00

In the end, everyone ends up alone

Losing her -the only one who's ever known who I am, who I'm not, who I wanna be

No way to know how long she will be next to me

Pull me back in as I continue to drift away. It's the inferiority and incompetency thing that eats at me, that drives me away from you. Don't lose me as I fade into the crowd

You were never mine

2009-02-06T23:43:00.005+08:00

Happy 21st birthday.

I would never wish bad things, but I don't wish you well

2009-02-05T20:55:00.003+08:00

The deadline's set.

Just because I'm losing, doesn't mean I'm lost

2009-02-05T03:56:00.000+08:00

Well I'm hoping for the best, even when all else fails, because there's nothing more that I can do.

The call that never came.

2009-02-03T23:33:00.000+08:00

I had 2 phones beside me just in case he called, (one for when he calls my phone, the other to call him back with) but he didn't. Well, that just makes me look very pathetic. Lying in bed, waiting, falling asleep in the process. Not that I didn't welcome it. Because today was a very long day ,what with waking up at 5 am to do my work. I did so much today, to kill time while, again, waiting for the call that never came.